At times I wonder if certain cancer treatments are more dangerous or harmful than cancer itself. A couple of years ago, my cancer treatment made me radioactive for a couple of weeks to kill the remaining cancer cells. (No, I did not glow.) But I was isolated from friends and family for over 3 days. They even gave me a letter to carry in case the radioactivity left in my body set off any alarms in government buildings or airports! That caused me to step back and wonder if that treatment was worth the risk. It worked, so I guess it was.
I have friends that have gone through chemotherapy and take all kinds of medications with terrible side effects to treat cancer. The goal is to kill the cancer, not the person. At times, I wonder if the doctors remember that part. It seems like the side effects from the treatments drain what little energy is left in our bodies at the time.
I’ve moved on from cancer treatment to cancer follow-up procedures. My doctor recommended that I get Thyrogen shots and blood work to see if my levels change. The Thyrogen stimulates the cancer producing cells. The shots are administered two days in a row. One shot is the left buttocks and the other shot in the right. It is literally a pain in the @ss! I got the first shot this morning. Ouch!! It hurt and burned. Now I have a headache and feel a little nauseous from the Thyrogen. I don’t want to go back tomorrow for the second shot. I’ve learned that part of surviving cancer is staying positive and doing things that I don’t necessarily want to do. I will continue to fight the fight!!!
The results should be back next week. I will do my best NOT to think about it and live my life. (Although every time I sit, my sore butt will remind me of the shots!) There is no point in worrying about it today. I will need to remind myself of this several times a day. If the blood work results are high enough to detect cancer, then they will move forward with treatment. If not, then I will continue going back every six months for follow-up visits and testing. Either way, I guess this pain in the @ss it worth it. I am praying that the results are good. Regardless, I will get through it and continue sharing my journey.